Exercisewise, this week was rough. It was a combination of things, Daylight Savings Time kicking my butt, a sore throat bug and stress. Since I’m thinking all three of these things will continue to occur on a regular basis, I need to find ways to overcome.
On the bright side, I’ve been good about my food journal but I haven’t eaten as well as I could have. One night I ate four Do-Si-Dos (Peanut Butter Sandwich Girl Scout Cookies) because I was so hungry and it was the only snack I that “appealed” to me. At times it is as if a part of me is fighting this new way of thinking and I sabotage myself. It is as if, that part of me realizes I’m serious this time and change is imminent and that part is pouting with fists full of chocolate bars and stamping it’s feet like a child saying “HELL NO I WON’T GO”!
I had a major epiphany this morning while updating a friend on a family member’s health. I say of the family member, “he talks a good game, but she is just making excuses” (pronouns changed to protect the guilty :)). It hit me like a board in the face this morning, OMG, am I doing the same thing? At times, yes. I should have skipped the !#%@ cookies and had some almonds. There is no law on the books that says you can’t have the same healthy snack two times in one day and seriously six almonds would have most assuredly been better for me than the four cookies.
On the bright side, I have run three days of Couch to 5K and enjoyed it every time. I love being outside again. I found a few videos on Netflix that I like and I have one of Leslie Sansone’s walking DVDs waiting to be tested (Hat Tip to The Blog Antagonist for the Leslie Sansone reco). I rode my bike for 3 muddy miles with my daughter last weekend too. Can’t wait to do more of that!
In case you hadn’t guessed, I am an impatient perfectionist. If I read this like a friend wrote it, I want to hug her and cheer her on and say “Great start! Good realization, do something constructive with it! Keep up the good work”, and yet here I sit annoyed that I ate four cookies the other night. Sometimes I guess I’m my own worst enemy! One battle at a time I guess.
Live Fearless Lee 
Oh, the comments I could/should make, but I have to leave in four minutes. You ARE off to a good start. I have been in a weight battle for longer than I want to admit and I have done HMR (Health Management Resources- a wight loss/wight maintance program) for 2 1/2 years and I have come to think of it as someone that goes to AA meetings. Every day, every hour, every minute there are choices. It’s hard, life gets in the way, but the job stays the same.
Keep up the good work and I am sure that you will be inspiring others.
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Thanks Char, I know how hard you worked (and continue to work) you are an inspiration! 😉
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You can DO this. The biggest piece of advice I have (and something I personally struggled with and still do) is not to expect perfection from yourself. You don’t have to be perfect to lose weight. If you screw up and eat cookies, FORGIVE yourself and move on. Four cookies is not going to make you gain weight. My tendency when I screw up is to think that I have hopelessly derailed myself and I might as well just eat what I want the rest of the day since it’s no longer a “perfect” day. That’s a very self defeating attitude and one I have really struggled to overcome. The first step really is the hardest, so good for you for taking it!!
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Thanks BA your posts are really an inspiration. I have PCOS, which slows the weight loss process. but I’m slogging on. I’m already seeing the positive impact of exercise and that’s a great feeling.
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